August 14th

Sooyoung unee on last day of trip in NYC. Will update more pictures soon.

Finally updating on my mini-vacation, nothing spectacular but gratifying in many aspects. Flew to Boston after work on Wednesday and stayed at the Hyatt in Harbor side. It was a beautiful hotel with a gorgeous view of the water. I usually don't get that lucky but I got upgrade on the room this time because of my co-worker who called in for me in advance. It was so weird spending time with Sooyoung unee once again in several years after college. Seeing her brought back many fond memories that were vanished from my thoughts...and some crazy memories that made us laugh. Seeing her again ..definitely made me appreciate our friendship even more. I promised her to go to Korea when she gets married. I'm not sure how soon that will be but I am praying for her. : ) (hopefully, you won't be too picky anymore unee!)
NYC was blazing hot during that weekend but I couldn't enjoy more of relaxing time away from daily routine. Visited Remnant Church in the city on Sunday and met up with Esther and Jocob. Frankly speaking, I did not enjoy as much as I expected, but it was good to see different style of ministry. I guess I'm already too used to my church.

night

What a beautiful night...there is so much peace and quietness in the house. Sometimes I miss living by myself..although it was only few months I had that opportunity, I enjoyed waking up in the empty house and start a slow morning with a coffee. Can't really explain exuberant feeling that comes from loneliness. Living with family is truly blessing...but I find myself taking it for granted...and become more careless about my own family members. As I was reading about Job and Daniel's specific commitments not to sin against their temptations, I wanted to make a convenant with my own heart so that I can truly demonstrate the Spirit's fruit of love, patience, and kindness to my family. I agreed....if Job and Daniel, righteous as they were, needed to make commitments..how much more Do I. getting sleepy now..

3rd day

God must really love me...I mean really...why?
He completely and utterly broke me..in a way I did not expected...in a way that I felt like all the way at the bottom..yet, I saw Him so clearly in my clouds. "The clouds are but the dust of our Father's feet." The clouds are a sign that He is there. What a revelation it is to know that sorrow and bereavement and suffering are the clouds that come along with God! God cannot come near without clouds, He does not come in clear shining.- Oswald C - I often had to ask God to teach me how to love Him...to teach me what love is. There, in the very moment, He told me that he does not want me to merely love him...merely serve him...but gave me boldness to completely surrender everything to Him. Why does He want me to go there? Why is He turning my heart around when I couldn't even trust myself? Eunah and I were talking about guarding our hearts...she said it's not up to us but up to God. Because even in the peak of our obssession and emotion...he enables us to lay down everything to Him completely so that we may find peace in whatever circumstances he provide for us at the end. I am so gratful that he's guarding my heart. It's amazing to know that God is so faithful to unworthy person like me.

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This week flew by once again. Lack of sleep and lack of excercise...I feel like my normal life pattern has shifted to different level. But then what is normal life? I guess it depends on individual's way of looking at it. I had to question myself as I was reading this morning. I truely recognize that my life has become much more simpler as I came to know God ...and He generously assuage all my hardships...but then there are still some areas that I keep on asking God why He allows certain things to happen.
"The things that happen do not happen by chance, they happen entirely in the decree of God.
If we are in communion with God and recognize that He is taking us into His purposes, we shall no longer try to find out what His purposes are. As we go on in the Christian life it gets simpler, because we are less inclined to say - Now why did God allow this and that? Behind the whole thing lies the compelling of God."-Oswald Chambers-
Looking forward to next weekend in Boston and NYC...