Perfect Trust

There is only one thing God wants of us, and that is our unconditional surrender.
How are we going to get the life that has no lust, no self-interest, no sensitiveness to pokes, the love that is not provoked, that thinketh no evil, that is always kind? The only way is by allowing not a bit of the old life to be left; but only simple perfect trust in God, such trust that we no longer want God's blessings, but only want Himself. Have we come to the place where God can withdraw His blessings and it does not affect our trust in Him? -Oswald C -
Recently, someone who knows me very well told me how weak and feeble my faith was in God..when I expressed my concerns and burdens in my heart. It really got me to look back at myself once again..not because of my misbelief about my faith, but because it actually warned me to stop sinning against God. What a blessing to know that God uses different people in life to speak to me.
I went to bed around 9pm last night... felt like I achieved something so great this morning. It was probably the earliest time I ever went to sleep after high school. I still dragged myself to get ready to go to work ...it's defninitely harder waking up in chilly weather like these days. Had a long weekend away from home and busy day at church. Uncomfortable wedding...long distance driving in rain..and flat tire ...although, I only watched all the work to be done...I mentally stressed out. I almost wanted to blame someone else for my flat tire since I hardly ever drive around...but then I should have taken initiative to take a good care of my own car if I knew of the problem. I was so grateful to God for bringing me home safely once again.

Fall..

I love the weather in transition from summer to autumn. Chilly morning and colors of the tree brings back some of the good memories from the past once again. Fall displays tenebrous atmosphere, and it has different fragrance in the air. It's weird because I enjoy it so much...it's refreshing being outdoor. But I can't really breathe right now because I got sick over the weekend...Took a day off yesterday to rest at home. It was good to be home...taken care by mom...just eating food and drinking tea all day...she was willing to make me anything I wanted to eat. it's amazing how she loves to take care of me...still...when I am all grown up. Funny thing is...I never feel too old to be around my mom like that... But I realized yesterday...that I don't give her same kind of love and affection as she does. and I thought... I must offer as much as I can now...when I have chance...although, I have to admit, I have only little to give compare to her.

" I have been at the bedside of many people in their final moments, when they stand on the edge of eternity, and I have never heard anyone say, "bring me my diplomas! I want to look at them one more time.
Show me my awards, my medals, that gold watch I was given." When life on earth is ending, people don't surround themselves with objects. What we want around us is people- people we love and have relationships with..."
From Purpose Driven Life, pg 126.
A brother shared this with our group the other day. Why is it so hard to get over the things that are so nugatory in our lives....