Esther's Birthday 6-16-05

Esther and Soo...Taylor~
With Soo's little girl Taylor~

Circumstances

Ordination service was finally complete. We were all getting very emotional as Pastor Alex expressed his gratitue toward different people in his life...especially to Michelle...who's been raising 3 little children...with her recent pregnancy. Always look graceful and quiet. I think about pastor's wife a lot these days. I always see them as special people... who's been predestined to be a supporter of God's servant. I really believe that it's a God's call to be a pastor wife. This guy I met last week through J.W. is j.d.s.n. in Delaware and he's planning to become a pastor. For some reason, he got me to think about where my heart was. Perhaps it was God who wanted me to re-examine my heart. I always pray that I am willing to offer up my life to God...but deep inside of my heart, I was far from being ready to let go of myself completely. I make my complicated life hinder myself from being completely vulnerable before God. I felt the deep sorrow as I saw myself callow...but thanked Him for teaching me once again.

Cold

Finally recovering from the cold...It was getting unbearable with combination of allergy and sinus heache...It must be from the broken AC in the office. I was so proud of myself not getting sick too. I found out about detoxicating food that will help people from allergies and asthma and thought about following their menu...but, I don't know if I can handle not drinking coffee. Spoke to Eunah last night...she comforted me in many ways... I was able to look at my problem in different perspective...and decided to pray about it more seriously. I am so glad I can talk to her and confide in her...and be the same for her as well.

Friends

On Thursday, As I was driving alone back from Esther's birthday dinner, I thought about how blessed I was. I never really thought about how much God has blessed me with such a wonderful friends here in Philly. Of course I knew I had wonderful friends who I want to continue grow in friendship...but I regret that I never took a time to really thank God. I'm sure Esther's 27th birthday wasn't too exciting because I am really not looking forward to my 27th birthday either. But I really hope that regardless of our age, we can stay young and true to one another in Christ as long as God allows.

Wedding

As I was watching Jeannette and Won's wedding ceremony...I thought Jeannette was probably in my shoes many times...watching her friends and families getting married and wondering about her own wedding day. At age of 32 she was getting married...I wonder how she really felt inside...She looked calm and peaceful as usual...and beautiful. Her brother was giving a toast during the reception and said that she devoted herself to God 10 years ago and left the marriage completely to God. Her faith, trust and love for God revealed such a blessing not only to her non-christian brother but to so many other people around her. I still can't believe that she's now no longer Jeannette Song...but She's Jeannette Kim. I hope and pray that their lives will be blessing and abundant in God.

Day

It's already June. Mother's day is passed, Summer retreat is over..memorial weekend is gone...time flies. Retreat at the Lancaster was relaxing. I was actually looking forward to play volleyball but weather was not as good as last year to do much of activities outside. Of course, pastor Alex's sermons were very blessing..and small group word times were awesome as well. It was such a good opportunity for me to get to know so many kids I never even talk to at church. I knew that between college members and young adults, we had big gap but I never really cared much to initiate relationship. I also found out that they also have heart to be more involve with young adult group since we are all serving in one ministry. I think alot of times I forget about importance of community. It's not that community needs me, it's me who needs community the most.