Circumstances

Ordination service was finally complete. We were all getting very emotional as Pastor Alex expressed his gratitue toward different people in his life...especially to Michelle...who's been raising 3 little children...with her recent pregnancy. Always look graceful and quiet. I think about pastor's wife a lot these days. I always see them as special people... who's been predestined to be a supporter of God's servant. I really believe that it's a God's call to be a pastor wife. This guy I met last week through J.W. is j.d.s.n. in Delaware and he's planning to become a pastor. For some reason, he got me to think about where my heart was. Perhaps it was God who wanted me to re-examine my heart. I always pray that I am willing to offer up my life to God...but deep inside of my heart, I was far from being ready to let go of myself completely. I make my complicated life hinder myself from being completely vulnerable before God. I felt the deep sorrow as I saw myself callow...but thanked Him for teaching me once again.