Introspection 2

Felt like I was keep on falling more than 100 times a day. I was so unease about my uncertainty and couldn't rest in the Lord. By grace of God, I was able to pick myself up each time. Perhaps He wanted to remind me that I must learn to keep His commend by not letting my heart be troubled and put Him first in every situation. Why am I so pressured to make the decision so quickly? I cannot stand the uncertainty.. especially when things doesn't seem to fit into the picture quite well in my own eyes.
Lord, teach me to seek you with all my heart so that I can find you.